Oh, Caitlin.
Why do you do this? Always wanting what ya can’t have.

I’m so lucky and so glad to be at CCM. But Freshman year is tough. Especially winter quarter. Every day right now kind of feels like I’m just checking off the days. “Okay, got through this one..check!” or “Yep…still alive today…check!” That’s just kind of the nature of winter quarter. Through all the stress and overwhelming things to do, it’s easy for me to forget once in a while why I wanted to go to a conservatory in the first place, when all I feel like doing some afternoons is takin a big ol’ nap. I think to myself “Why don’t I have more energy? Does that mean I’m not a good actress? Do I have what it takes? Maybe working at Burger King for the rest of my life wouldn’t be SO bad.” blah blah blah. I know. So dramatic.

And then I see this:

And I become inspired and excited all over again. Tracie Thoms went to Howard University for Undergrad and then went BACK to Juilliard. That’s 8 years of school. The girl has some patience. And I need to just appreciate and bask in this time that I have here, because I really do love it. I just let things overwhelm and stress me out because I feel like I’ve become a robot sometimes. There is rarely time to live outside of the classroom or meetings, or homework.

But then I see someone like Tracie Thoms, who is such an inspiration to me (she also graduated from Baltimore School for the Arts, my first love ❤ ) and I feel so rejuvenated. It’s worth the headaches I get sometimes trying to figure out how I will get everything done in a day.

Such a beaut ❤

In other good news, I am SO lucky and honored to be cast in this year’s Spring show Picnic. I’ll be playing Irma, a schoolteacher. This was a huge surprise for me, which I know sounds weird because if you are reading this and you don’t attend a theatre conservatory, you would assume it makes sense to get cast in shows, right? But Freshmen aren’t typically cast in productions, so when Richard called me to replace a role (they had to do some recasting), I was pretty much sure he was calling me to tell me I was cut from the program. (I know, again, so dramatic.) I can’t wait for this adventure! I’m so excited to see how the rehearsal process here works differently from BSA.

Tonight though, I will be taking the evening off to go to Don Pablo’s with Kate and do some window shopping at the Rookwood Pavillion, like a normal homosapian. Sometimes, you need to venture outside of the 2 block radius of Clifton to remember that there is life out there.

‘Til next time…




January 13, 2010

It’s been a while since my last post. Woops. I don’t think I’ve gone this long without updating in a while! That’s pretty much the epitome of this quarter for me though. BUSY BUSY BUSY. This weekend I have masterclasses Saturday and Sunday for 5 hours each, next weekend I have an audition for an ACT Scholarship Competition, and the weekend after that= more masterclasses. January is an absolutely insane month.

That being said, I feel like I’m handling my work load a lot better this quarter because I know what to expect. I feel like I have less homework than I did last quarter, but much more to DO if that makes any sense. My only real issue is that I need desperately to get a job but I.have.no.time.

Speaking of which, I’m scrambling to try and figure out what the heck I’m going to do with myself this summer. Here’s my dilemma: I need to make money. I want to intern. I think I want to stay in Cincinnati and do some work around here. Or maybe go back to Baltimore? Or maybe stay? or… I DON’T KNOW. I’d love to intern in LA or NY or Chicago, but I think that will definitely have to wait for another year because right now, the monay honay just ain’t there.

I’m also in the process of getting my housing situated for next year which I’m really excited about :). This won’t be my first home away from home, but it WILL be the first place I get with roommates other than my sister. Plus, we will most likely be getting a house instead of an apartment, which is super thrilling :). That being said, expect to see lots of pictures of home decor inspiration on here in the coming weeks since I’ve become addicted to looking at furniture.

All in all, my year so far has been pretty amazing. I’m really, really happy. In every way. Which is a little scary but I’m just going to try to enjoy it for as long as I can. I feel really lucky right now. So I’m just going to sit tight and see where this will take me.

I hope everyone is having an amazing new year 🙂

‘Til next time…